honesty (09-27-06)

Ive always told people that honesty is never the best policy, but sometimes i just wish someone would just shake me and say, just say it, just tell that person, whatever you have to.

the consequences, what will happen, to tell that person whats lurking in the back recesses of your mind. hate, love, anger, feelings just screaming to be released, pushing my subconcious.

its all pride isnt it? cause when you tell someone the truth, be it good or bad, you then become vulnerable to the truth from them. my mind, my heart my soul all saying different things.

to cut that person loose, to let them be unaware of what you're thinking, maybe they're happier that way. isn't ignorance bliss? isnt it? what u never know wont hurt you.

i hate being confused, if only i could advise myself. when ure in the situation, in the midst of it all, deciding which outcome, which path, what challenges lay there.

right now all i have left is my pride and i know its not gonna be enuff, it never is. what do i do.? should i just go for it? what do i do? risk it all? what what what.........

help me

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