My brother is not well...... Its so sad.... But all we can do is hope and pray. When it comes down to times like this that you cant blame anyone, but you feel so helpless.

He's so young, he's only 37. Its crazy, but sometimes you just have to roll with the punches, you just use whatever cards life deals you. Some people are lucky they have one of them straight flushes, some get royal flushes and in the world of card games, you know they some lucky bastards right there.

Its so weird, I guess people just deal with things there own way, as my very smart but SMALL friend said, its your own coping mechanism.... and everybody has their own. I guess I'm the kinda person that sees the humor in every single situation. I cant deal with being sad for too long, its depressing and a horrible place to be.

Some people might say Im strong, but I say that you do the best you can, cause thats all you can do. and sometimes you do need to laugh, cause when situations get too heavy and you dont break the tension then things go awry.... ( ive always wanted to use that word, I feel smart now)


But if you do know my big brother and or somebody who knew him and they can make him laugh and feel a little bit better, go visit him. go say hi, we never truly realise the effect we have on others around us. Im a firm believer that a laugh goes along way. and my brother needs to keep his spirits up, cause a happier person heals faster. Well thats what i believe.

If you do go see him please try to keep the tears in check, he doesnt need tears and sadness, he needs to feel positive and he himself must believe that he will get better.... Cause thats our only hope right now....