11-21-06

Why do some people take up residence in your life, and some just visit? What is it? How come we re so conditioned to just let them walk away? Or is it no conscious choice of our own? Is there anything we can do to keep the connection? Or do we just cherish what ever we had?

No, I’m not talking about love, well maybe I am, cause love comes in different forms doesn’t it? This is one thing I’ve learnt…… that loving someone and being in love are two different ends of the confusing, overwhelming emotion that we call love. It’s an endless stretch, from loving chocolate to being in love with someone. (that was a bit vague, but u get the gist of it doncha)

Another amazing thing is how these people were once on the very top of your priorities. Then without you realizing it, they sink lower and lower, till they altogether disappear. Maybe making a guest appearance once in a while, but never leading roles as before.

Of course you miss them, it would be a huge discrepancy on my part to not own up to this. And it affects you, puts you in a bad mood, can’t think straight, annoying feeling in the back of your heart. But life goes on, you deal with it. You go to bed, you wake up…… what miss? Suddenly it doesn’t matter, in the span of a good night’s sleep you shake it off. Are we all this fickle? How do we do this?

Fate has put different people in your life for different reasons for different lengths of time, maybe just appreciate what you have for how ever long its around, cause this too will fade like your favorite tank top to your closest dearest friend, its all the same. In the end you stand alone, with your experiences, feelings, thoughts, past, present and future as your companion.