daddy....... its been a year

its almost been a year now. time has moved on so fast, and i still wish he was here. no matter that we fought and i disappointed him. and i never had a chance to prove myself. i would still give my life for his. is it possible?

to live in his shadow forever, or to built my own image, my own career, which could succeed..........

im sori daddy....... i wish...... i wish....... but wishes dont work..... i miss you......

15th december is looming and i hate it..........

so i laugh and smile, hoping that no one sees the sadness in my eyes........ a hug only alleviating the pain for a second, a laugh lightens my heart for a moment.

does anyone ever reli get over the pain? i keep thinking that its not true. and its been a year. my family....... the little ones how do they handle it? kesian eh.......... here we are ur legacy........

every single one marked with ur looks............ we r such a mess